I had a dream

I had the most wonderful dream the other night... But I must warn it was a little scary too...

It started out as a very dark night in a village like something you would see in the moving "Memoirs of Geshia" and I was running and crying and feeling very upset and alone. I than ran into a couple that I knew from Santa Barbara and went inside their little house and spoke to them for a little bit just telling them that I am so sad and I need to find my sister. They looked at me and didn't really say anything it was kind of odd. I was thinking to myself why am I here talking to them they are not really my friends and they can't understand what I am going through. I then left their place and started running down the street in the dark with this really sad emotion that just took over my whole body. I then ran in to another little house and I found Ja-Rule in the bath tub with a cigar talking to me telling me to let it go and to suck it up. I guess I was crying because I was so confused and I think I was being chased by a mob of people. He then told me that I have to look into myself and face it. There was another person in the room that was drying me off and this is were it gets a little wired. When the person was drying me off I noticed I was naked and I didn't care. I was like look this is all of me just me. I was bleeding and I showed the person that was drying me off and that person made me take a cotton ball and place a little bit of blood on it and show it to the people outside. I then proceeded to get dressed and once I was done with that I left. When I went outside again it was still really dark and I looked into my past growing up and what my life was like and it was really weird and crazy. Then all of sudden when I got to the heart of my memories I ran and jumped through the darkness like football players jump through those papers at a game and on the other side I was in Santa Barbara at a park called Kids World but before it was Kids world it was just a park with like telephone polls that you could climb on and my sister and I would always play there when we were very young. But anyways once I got through the darkness and realized I was at this park it was bright and sunny and green and I looked up and saw my sister counting by one of the big tall palm trees when she was 6 and I was 4. I started running towards her calling her name and she looked at me and when I was running I knew this was a dream and I didn't care I just made sure that I made myself run as fast as I could to her before I woke up. Well when I got to her she looked up at me and I gave her the biggest hug I could and when I looked to my right I could see myself at 4 looking at her just wondering when she was going to come and try to tag me. That's when I woke up. I must say this is one the best dreams I have had since she has been gone because I was able to dig deep into my mind and remember us as children small little girls and best friends with no fear or worries. I just wanted to share and see what you may think this may mean... Thanks for reading and Happy holidays to all.... There is a lot more detail to my dream however I don't know how to put it into words. I can see it in my mind and I hope this dream stays with me forever...