To my sister whom is forever in heaven and in my heart..

Day by day I get by..... and how I haven't lost myself is beyond me....

Going Blonde...

Well I am dog sitting for this week for my boss and his wife since they are out of town. I thought hey this will be great since I want a dog like their's a nice little one. I then realized about two days into it that there is no way I am getting a dog. They just need too much attention and time and love and I've realized I have no time or love to spear right now. On Wed night I decided to change my look. So what do you do when your bored go for the one color you've always wanted and hope for the best. I started adding the dye to my hair and mins into it you could already see a difference. I was so excited and couldn't wait for the out come. Finally the 30mins were up and I was able to rinse the stuff out of my hair and I loved what was done. I really feel like a new person I really want to take the idea of my friend Antwnettie aka Toby and change my name for a bit. If you have any ideas please let me know. I've been working out for the last 3weeks and I am really close to my goal of being on the ellipitcal for an hour. Yesterday I worked out with my plastic running suit for 50mins and burned 488cals... I was so happy until I got on the scale and I weighed more then I had thought. Don't worry I didn't go and eat my heart out because I was mad I just decided to work harder the next day. Let me tell you friends if I don't lose the weight and fat that I am looking to lose by December then I am going to get lipo...It's just $995 an area....I can afford that and no it's not the doctor that make house calls with it kitchen silverware and a kenmore vaccum cleaner...LOL LOL...I've been having crazy dreams lately and the last one that I had my mom and steve died and my sister was driving us around in her black car telling me it will all be ok don't worry. It's weird to have a dream were my mom was gone but not Steve because that night I was mad at him and asked my sister for help to resolve the issue but I don't think killing would of helped..LOL...Oh yeah when my mom died we went through her stuff and found tons of money in her pockets and her wallet and we just kept pulling out 100's, 20's, and 1's and when I woke up and got dressed I looked in my pocket and found money that I didn't know I had...That was really cool....I need more dreams like that were I dream of money and I find it when I wake up. Oh yeah I have some new pics that I will be posting of my sister next month that my computer guy is going to get for me off of my old hard drive of a computer that no longer works. I can't wait to see what's on there...I hope the naked pictures to surface...Just kidding the naked pictures were taken with the old school poloraid camara you know when the pic comes out right after the pic is taken....LOL LoL..